u tink u v dua arh?!

wah lau.
today's counter duty was so interesting.
1st, when i went in to small room, saw a hp on e table. was wondering who left it there. Saw councillors ard, but dun tink it resembles any of their hps. In e end, cheewy brought a fren in. It was HIS. and he's not even a councillor. how come he has e rights to go in? I wouldnt wanna question.

Oh, there was also this guy (Louis?) who lost a ACS file. Hmm... seemed reali worried. Even pasted a note on one of e pillar in sl. So ppl! Whoever found an ACS file, return it to louis/GO immediately!

Then, this guy from my gp class came in. not enuff. along came e AM & TURTLE. cc seems to have lost smth out of e locker, in which their books are still in there. They ransacked e small room to see if we have taken them (throphy & c set)
*ahem* U v smart rite? Collect so high salary. So then PLEASE USE UR BRAIN lah!! why would we wanna take their stuff? Would we throw away a throphy? Would we clear a locker without clearing the books which are, obviously, INSIDE??
Tt's not e main pt. Im a f'er. So obviously welfare stuff's not under my scope. When i replied 'im not sure', e idiotic, spastic, gonna-be-cursed-like-siao-by-me-cos-im-damn-pissed-with-him TURTLE said 'i want a 'yes' or 'no' ans' with e DAMN ATTITUDE face. Luckily dc & bear bear were in sl. So i called out for them. TURTLE's face straight away got 90degree difference lah! Tok to them in such a nice, gentle, soft tone. WTH lah! Wad did i do previously to offend him?!? *or maybe he's gAy* Anw, they knew some lai-long-qu-mai to tt story (cos i heard it's not e 1st time they so rudely stormed in).

MAN. i reali HATE his attitude. So wad if u r a teacher? Does that makes u higher up there? Maybe ur knowledge level is indeed higher (than me at least. Cos im pretty sure there are smart kids around knowing more & better than these 'knowledge-givers') BUT i can conclude here & now that ur integrity & character & moral & humanity level is so LOW. im sorry. it's not even low. it's EMPTY. u gay.
-who do u tink u r?- i think u r a GAYish TURTLE.

help u... help myself

my legs had alr endured at lst 14.8km this week. Actually i wanted to push it to 18km one... but it rained today, so nv run in e morn, ): nvm... will still have chance. i believe so!

ooh.... so proud of myself!!!!!!! *_*
for e FIRST time in my life, i did a B in 2.4km!!!! =) well, yea, it's not an A. But i haf been improving from a D in lower sec to C in upper sec to finally a B now. I seriously think i deserve a pat on my back *plat* lolx.
anw, i ran twice summore. 1st time on tue was e actual thing. 14:57min. tt's e B
wed, decided to run again since dian & yuxuan haven run yet (yar lor. so only me & hanjie ran on tue. =x can u imagine? 2 ppl on track?? hAhAz.. summore she's sooooooooooo faaaaassssssst) timing was 15:31min or smth lydat. anw not my timing, so didnt care much, neither did i bother to rmb e timing. but was reali happi that i didnt walk at all throughout! (on tue i walked. but still did better. hMm...) so tt makes 12 laps in 2 days. hAhAz... nvm, can jian fei wad. =p
but tt stooopid 'not-high' called me e wrong name!!! *rolls eyes*

i wonder if u r grateful. i doubt it. u didnt even bother to say tt 2 small words which makes a big difference. maybe u didnt need my help? but just saying tt 2 tiny words out from your mouth, isnt it e most basic, simplest thing u can do?? even thou i did it with my own intention, but still, wad's with all those encouragement? i guess different environment really bring ppl up differently. to think u r still so proud of urself. *ahem* pls b more modest.

lousy mee... beehoon is better??

WTH lah
Japanese: Grade 9, 0 percentile
PLS. I know my jap's not very good. But NEVER in my whole life had i FAIL jap before k. My worst was even at lst a C6. And tt was in jpu. back in sec sch, my worst was B4 (in sec 1, 1st common test)
False reflection of the progress report card. I reali cant stand it lor. Esp on this already-more-than-enough underlined grade.
Hai... 1st time in my life i had to see a teacher regarding my poor performance. It's not a great feeling. In fact, i feel qt sad actually. It's like i had fallen from a cliff which i had spent lots time & efforts climbing. Just when i wanna peek down to see how far i've come, i fell. sigh. guees this kinda feeling no one can understand.

And for e 1st time, my chem s assignment has soo many ticks. But guess wad? They are not even my answers. Pretty sad hah?
Dunno if i should continue copying so as to get cleaner paper back. Or should i just drop this. think drop now still can get back refund rite??

-needs help-

walk walk walk

*okay... was supposed to update on this looong ago. but, well, i did save it as draft wad. only no time to elaborate mah...* anyway, here goes...
wOw. I survived that 7 hrs hike. YES. SEVEN hours. Tiring as it was, it was fulfilling too! I feel sooOOO proud of myself! hAhAz. Not just because i had perserved thru, but also my achievements along the way.

1. I completed the hike!!!
hAhAz, okiez. I did slow down the team cos im so unfit.

2. I helped solved things & fasten it.
At *** (not supposed to reveal e places we'r goin, i guess?), i suggested that we split e work up & each of us take a part to solve. Well, no one reali took me seriously, but tink we did tt in e end.
then i also solved another 'thinking' puzzle. didnt understand e instruction at 1st. so guess wrong way initially. until someone said we'r taking a lloooonnng time to solve it while other teams only took seconds, i was qt pissed, so suddenly i spurted out a line. wala@~ i solved it! hAhAz... reali didnt expect lor... when i finally understood wad we were supposed to do with tt clue, i actually solved it under 10s. haha...

3. I carried a guy! even thou he's qt light lah =p
cos *ahem*, situation required. and im very very very sure (comfirm plus guarantee plus chop!) that he cant carry me wad. so i carried him lor. no big deal lah. but still, hAhA, gal can carry guy arh!!! so DUN ever look down on gals animore! ><

Well, tt's abt my achievements (or at lst those im v proud of). shall stop here now. muz be modest. cough cough...

bu shuang [NOT e drink k]

To get a guy over 1st...
Wasnt tt my idea? Wasnt it me who suggested it 1st? But wad did u all do to this initial plan of mine? Dismissal. Not only that. Many were blaming me for suggesting such an idea. How can gal support guy?!?!?! Wad did u all do when he voiced it out? Carried it out. This is just so unfair. And it's not the 1st time. I still rmb when we 1st played it last yr. I had a suggestion too. But it was disregarded (as always). It was only at e end, e senior commented tt i had a good suggestion. But who bothered to take it in?? Sometimes, i may not have e most brilliant idea, but cant u all at lst think it through thoroughly?
-being used yet without credits-

Clowns...
Maybe im being biased. But sacrifising 92 candidates' pride for laughter? That i reali cant accept. It's not as if u r in a CCA which ppl look up upon to u. Do u noe tt we r actually also mocking bird of others too? Sometimes i wonder why i stayed. Maybe i feel tt i owed e seniors. They were soo nice. and the teachers too. e current batch certainly is not e reason why i hang on. In fact, conversely, it is one of e factor tt make me badly want to end this.
-hanging on so as not to let down e nice teachers & seniors-

在 pc, cs 被人笑；
在 cs, lc 被人笑；
只有 lc 不笑人 =) maybe tt's y i enjoy being there.

i juz wanted to stand on my own...

好胜的心应就此死去，不然真正的心将活不了多久

为什么 每一次
好事都没我份
坏事都我扛？

maybe i really shouldnt haf 'gei kiang'... maybe i should haf let them embarassed themselves instead...
'you shouldnt have done that!'
'actually i had already thought of two points to rebutt him...'
if u guys haf had all these thoughts, where were the actions? What's the point of saying u haf tot of saying wat she went up to say aft she HAD SAID it??! wth. if not for her rescue, WE WERE ALL DEAD lah.

dun bother listening to me. thinks u r so great. pls. u r NOT.
dun care about me. just wanna show off, AA. u r pApAyA jiu you! (c i so nice, gif u 3 As...)

the date: 2005 council electorial speech day

《I do》

Oh I do... I do... I do...

第一次 见到你的时候
我的心 突然变了节奏
我默默 在你身边等候
多希望 能牵到你的手 Oh I do~

每一次 盘旋在你左右
多期盼 能看到你回头
不让你 感到寂寞忧愁
我愿意 往终点一起走

Oh I do~ 我心甘情愿付出我的全部
Oh I do~~ 只要为了你其他我不在乎
Oh I do~ 我会确保你一生不再孤独
Oh I do~~ 手牵手我们一起走这条路

©满满 09/04/05

haha... had ideas for this song when... i was bathing!! lolx. i always have ideas coming at the most peculiar environment & timing. haha... so i started humming & having lyrics rushing into my mind. And so i came up with the chorus! Somehow i like this song so much, i hurried to record the stuff (lyrics & tune of the chorus). =D
reali like this song... But it seems to be a song for a guy to express his admiration for a gal hor?? =p

times when i feel... ...

Back in cedar... ...
the only time i feel reali stoopid was when i was joking.
the only time i feel reali obese was when i was comparing with me n myself.
the only time i feel reali lonely was when i was going home alone.
the only time i feel reali outcast was when i was hallucinating.
the only time i feel reali helpless was when i was doing the literature question in an exam.

Now... ...
the only times i feel like crying is when i look back in the past or think upon the present.
the only time i feel like the above is all the time.

Maybe im clinging on too hard.
Maybe im expecting too much.
Maybe the rest are just too smart.
Maybe the rest are just too tough.
Or maybe, i was meant to learn about life through the harsh way.

do i wanna go public??

thought going public was what i wanted.
Or at least when my initial intention of having a blog was to have somewhere to store my songs. Was hoping for comments, regardless positive or negative. (thou i think so far only got -ve ones =( )

Then i started ranting in here. Upon seeing the lack of comments. I supposed no one bother coming. So i started complaining. (revealing e other side of me??)

Soon, the links expanded. Not that i dun like ppl linking me in their blogs. I truly appreciate it. but it's just that with the awareness that a lot more ppl found my blog (thru links or wadeva means), i realised that there are thought i have on my mind for blog, yet when i sit down in front of this square thingy, loading upon this uninteresting layout, i dunno how to type already. Nothing come into my mind.

Recently, few ppl came up to me and said they've found my blog. And i also realised that many more ppl actually have linked my blog from theirs. Hmm... it makes me wonder if i shld go on ranting. I might offend ppl while trying to show how they offended me [hmm, oxymoronic??] (thou seriously, if im d*mn pissed off, would i care??!) But on a second & more mature thought, i dun wanna do/post things i would regret. (unlike wad a friend recently did. thou he said that he dun regret wadeva he do. -fine-)

okiez... guess i've made another entry. Hopefully it gonna be saved safely. There seems to be smth wrong with blogspot. ever since i started trying to log in.
Oh well, if i hafta vent anger next time, maybe i'll need more inspirations for short stories like balloon [prev entry] in view of nbot wanting to offend ppl.