ps curse

grr... i wasnt supposed to have the time to blog.. but the ps curse that was stuck with me gave me some more "me time" today..
was supposed to go yanyi's house to bake.. yay! love to try baking... but always no chance to try it out.. knowing yanyi & yiying love this kind of thing, so we finally settled on this unique gathering during this hols!

but wenqi had to help her mommy pack stuff for her house-moving. well, she doesnt have to move house until she comes back from her grad trip to taiwan. & well, we arranged this meet-up long ago, didnt we?? of all days, she had to pick this day to pack. "cos i have been going out this week" oh wells. so our meet-up is dispensable?? you cannot postpone,reject outings on the other days huh?? haiz...
so my time is worthless. what's the point of keeping to your promise, clearing your day for your friends, when all they have to do is tell you at the last minute, "sorry, i cant meet up"....

欲疯不疯 不疯则疯

我希望他快点发疯。
也许我是个坏妹妹。但是他这样的行为，我真的会惧畏。
这个学期，无形的压力压得我透不过气。朋友越来越自私也就算了，他偏偏选择回家苦读。我不喜欢给自己压力。但，他在房里踢来撞去，拍东打西，我能不被影响吗？
现在都没什么事，他也是喜欢发飙就发飙。同在一个屋檐下，我做事却得小心翼翼，以免他有任何不爽，又在一次摔物砸门。
自由，你在哪里？
劝说爸妈送神经质的他去看病，他们却拖拖拉拉。由他们去吧。
只是到时候，看是他终于无法控制自己了，还是我这个被压抑的高压机先被引爆。

to go or not to go??

if it (happening in 2 yrs' time) includes her, should i still go??
or rather, will i still be as happy as i would?

those 2 outings with the group, i truly enjoyed myself!
i think im like them too, making friends, well, just because we want to be friends. Even until now, yes, i do know the existence of "fake" people, but no, im choosing not to be like them. she's not bad a person really. But then again, how do you know it's that her true self and not acting? After all, i've experienced enough of her superficial behaviours. The more i get into contact with her nowadays, the more i feel that she's making a political relationship with us (or maybe just me?).
I dislike it.

"You dont feel embarrassed meh? When she asked why we nv jio her..."
"Actually.... no"
haha. well, i cant help it. im a straightforward person.
Friends will say, "NO, I CANNOT!" even, "CHANGE IT!!!"
Political friends will say, "I'd love to... but...."
True friends stick enough to be involved all the time.
Political friends need to be invited.

suayy week for petty me

just in 4 days, i kena pangseh-ed by 13 people!!!! grrr... angry sia! waste my effort to arrange, waste my time to travel...

tue (B&J day) - by various:
Jiejie & gang (ard 3 ppl) ps-ed me when jiejie smsed on mon morn saying she gonna meet ppl at bukit gombak @ 12... huh? reali meh?? so last min =(
uncle ps-ed me on mon nite in mse lab. but he's forgiven. cos it slipped his mind that dere's still hrm paper on wed! :D haha.. tt's y many grp B-ers gotta missed e outing =(
Siqi & gang (ard 4 ppl) ps-ed me on mon nite, saying they won't be there... even thou just 6 hrs b4 tt, they said they will be there.
shien sorta ps-ed me when he confirmed ard midnight tt he wont b gg for e event.

wed (Kallang Leisure Park outing) - by mommy
Well, yao-gui me wanted to utilise the promo coupons i printed from SBStransit. Cos the deadline is this day & cos i dun wanna waste them, booked mommy to go "shopping" a long time ago. But just the morn, she realised that e place we are gg to, is a place where we need to change bus to reach from home. After calculating, she realised it was bo-hua to go there. After all, the coupons are all "buy-one-get-one-free" & stuff like bubble milk tea, breakfast sets, desserts... okkaayy lor... tot i wanna spend some mommy-girl time also mah... =(

thur (Kbox) - by Dongyu (organiser) & weibin
wah liaoz. alr said i will make it since there are at least 3 of us gg. Had managed to keep my labour day holiday free for u guys ever since tt time u asked me to. cos i know u gotta leave for england soon... A*star scholarship or is it DSTA?? *&^$# wth. *&^$#% wasnt it already settled that at least got 3 of us confirmed?? now, just cos e chiobu didnt want to go, u cancelled it?!!? U wait long long for her to go out bah... She'll either drag replying or come up with a reason on the actual day of event de. tt's her, if u still dunno. so used to it le that nowadays, i've become the sort of person who will go for event im reali reali interested in, regardless got company anot. so perhaps i should thank her for training me to b such a strong person eh?? 2 yrs' of being taken advantage of in exchange for this training is not cheap at all....

fri (chinese song composition @ NJC) - by Mdm Woon
haiz. wanted to save 5c by not replyin to my ex-teacher i/c of CLDDS, partly also wanna avoid her cos she was pestering me to perform, when i have absolutely nothing to present! end up, wasted sooo much of my time (travelling & changing tuition timing) & travelling fare, to reach NJ & found out that e event was cancelled. HAIZ. 因小失大 big time.

wah.. posting these like i v petty hor.. hmm, but i admit i am! haha... really angry at some, cos yue-ed them alr den ps me... damn saddening de lor.. AND ESPECIALLY FOR THE ACTIVITY THAT I LIKE (K), specially take note of their outing le, still cancel it last minute. so bo xim to meet me, mite as well not ask me rite in e 1st place. just try bookin her can le lor. see when will u succeed.. wth. HUH. dun expect me to take special note of ur outing next time.
& not so angry at others lahh.. just some ramblings off my chest =p

"K-ge-ing"

was supposed to go K-ing today... but last minute got cancelled. his reason? cant find enough subs... but wad's "subs"?? i dunno.
kns.
so cheated again.
& if i didnt initiate to ask him e day before, is it that he is not going to tell me? maybe until the actual labour day itself?
wth lah. i have my own life, my own plans de okay! lucky i had asked earlier, before my wed's tuition. else arrangement for today's timing would be difficult.

oh well. the best thing that came out of this cancellation? i got to rest on this labour day holiday. Dun feel like going out anyway... so tired. had been travelling these days le (mon: exam then sakae, tue: b&J, ps, raffles city, wed: orchard, tuition).. time for me to rest & have some me-time :)