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if i just end now, is it ok?

would you care? the one who always see things only from your own perspective...
would U care? the one who only talks but does not act...
would u care? the one who peeps but do nothing...
would You care? the one who talks a lot but from the self-centered point of view...

would anyone care??

the place i showed off my bargaining skill =p

Went to SAJC funfair today. 1st time, cos FINALLY got people wanna treat me liao. hAhAz! thanks, jun wen! =p Anyway, the funfair was okay lah. Didnt go to the haunted house (it should be the highlight rite? Just like every other school. reminds me of the halloween party we organised last year.) and the games were okay. Wanted to see people kena dunk one, but jw had to leave early wad, so nothing to see yet. Bet the principal will get dunked eventually, even though his bidding price is $1000. (again, reminds me of smth. Cant believe sp agreed to get dunked during Funtasia. Wondered what was the bidding price. Bet EVERYONE donated to see that once-in-a-lifetime scene! =D)

But it was nice to see lots people i know. Some of whom i didnt expect them to say 'hi'. haha. Oh yar, saw Wei Zheng cos he frantically waved to me when he saw me. haha. He & his orange hair. Didnt buy anything from him though. He was selling the "xin xue" of the teachers. Bags sewn by the teachers. Surprisingly he spoke chinese!! HAHA. so nan de kaez.. so a round of applause to wei zheng!!! =)

Oh, then there was Xiaoxuan too! Didnt realise how much i missed her!! Despite not having to catch up often (not same sch so cant meet in person, she's a scholar with not much internet connection so cant meet online), she's ALWAYS so enthu, so energetic when she see me! (: that's really sweet, isnt it? Now that i thought of it, IF she had stayed, we might end up in same class! Or at least same combi. & i would get to see her in CLDDS too. Then life wouldnt be so sad & lonely now... Well, shouldnt just think of "IF". Should be contented with her still so nice & friendly to me. Hmm, maybe should go out with her sometimes! Too bad she lost her hp, cant contact her readily til she get another phone...

Basically that was basically my day. Other people i met were Pinyue (Saints), Cheryl (NJCian), Darren (my junior class), Kendrick (my OG), Wei Jin (also my OG). Speaking of Wei jin, it reminds me of his 'chey'. HAHAHA. yanagi, YES, im still laughing about this. ;P

an unexpected experience

OH MY GOSH!... i was dreadful of going to suntec at first. 1st time ever was i SO unwilling to go to suntec. hAhA. cos we were going there for some "Total Defence PhotoFest" exhitbition. was boring rite! Suay suay our class kena selected, and being a guai student, i didnt pon it. (i DUN pon things one). so there i was, at suntec.

THEN the show started (apparently there was a stage lah) Some pri sch kids sat down. Me, dian, yuxuan decided to sit down & watch it since it would be more entertaining than looking at the photos. It started with a dance. Not exactly "A" dance cos it incorporated chinese, malay and indian dances insdie. But it was DAMN FARNIE!!! **Reminds me of the "racial harmony dance" we did for a CIP for kids. The myojo noodle song. HAHAHA =D** and i swear that the dancer were laughing on stage while they danced! Must have seen us (the gals) laughing, especially me! The skit was basically rather boring cos the contents were intended to make the PRI SCH kids laugh. Too bad, EVEN that didnt work out fine. The kids werent laughing as much actually. (wow, to think that i even know which part of the skit was planned for some laughter!)

Anyway, after was a song by singapore semi-finalists Nathaniel & Benjamin. Didnt have much impression on them initially, though i remember seeing Nathaniel's name on TV but think cos they didnt stay too long in the show anyway, so not much impression. But no bad lah, they sang "Where Is the Love". The dancers were great too, though the gals were SOoO obscene! They rolled up their shirts till JUST BELOW you-know-where. So disgusting lah. And it was not as if they had fabulous figures to start showing off with anyway. Anyway, that's not the point. Dian first noticed that Nathaniel looks cute, so we gals started gossiping the two stars while they were performing on stage. Yar, i agreed with Dian too. Then whenever he's right in front of us (cos we were sitting very close to the stage), we felt very excited. haha. After the song, e emcee (whom i find familiar though no1 seem to know him) interviewed them. And so, the show ended with all the performers (including the dancers for the oh-so-funny-and-truly-entertaining multi-racial dance.
**Here comes the MAIN point** Just when they were leaving the stage, they waved to the audience (well, the measly group of people watching them at least). I SWEAR again that Nathaniel looked at our direction & did a small wave (the kind you do when waving to a particular person) with a smile. I SAW THAT. When I asked Dian & Yx if they saw, they said no! Cos they werent looking at him. So it means he WAVED & SMILED TO ME?!?!?! OMG!!!! *_* and so, there i was, kena electrified. haha.

While we were being dismissed, dunno why I was searching for something in the exhibtion area so was tiptoe-ing, having my head stretched out. Yx suddenly pulled me at my sleeves. When i came back down, only then she told me Nat just went past. As if to make me jealous, she claimed that he smiled at her. Well, if she wants to say so. I didnt want to aruge with her. Because, I was having my head stretched out, looking far. He could have thought that i was looking for him, or better still, looking AT him (if he turned at the right angle and distance)~ OR worst, he think we are obsessed with him (which explains my stretched-out head & her pulling at me) So he's still smiling at me?? But well, if yx wanna think that he was smiling at her & her only, then let it be.
Im contented with his (personalised?) SMILE & WAVE. (:

searching for

She Will Be Loved
by Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
[in the backround]
Please don't try so hard to say goobye
Please don't try so hard to say goobye
Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goobye

anyone got mp3 of this song??! i want!!!

s for stoopid

i feel so sad... maybe i shouldn't have tried to be a smart alex and take up s papers. so bu zi liang li. i should have just concentrate on my As... ay, but i bet i'll be kicked out of s group anytime soon anyway. so be it.
i've never ever gotten back an assignment with NOTHING else but CROSSES on it before. NEVER. At least i bet others have a few ticks here & there and having arrow heads hanging here & there. I DUN. It's just so depressing lor. And i was left alone for this dreadful day. Well, not exactly, i was sitting in front of people whom i know and didnt bother to ask me if i wanted to sit with them in the same row. Worst, they only keep borrowing my question paper. I feel so being used.
As the lecture went on, i realised that i actually deserve my crosses. I had my approach totally wrong!! Sigh, guess i just don't have the brain to take s papers.
For maths s, i cant comment much cos i always go for the tutorials/lectures empty-handed, unprepared. Sigh... I feel so guilty, of not getting any proper thing done.

Then i realised i still haven find a way to get another data booklet. Why don't i have it?? Good question. All thanks to myself for being such a nice person, bringing EVERYTHING (ie the whole file) when Mr Goh wanted to discuss the chem promos papers last year. Me hao xin bring for the group to use. In the end it got lost. I realised it the next day. But anyone helped OR at least TRIED helping me find it?? not surprisingly, no. They didnt even bother to check their own bags to see if they had mistakenly took my data booklet the previous day.
So here i am, data booklet-less. Anyone know how can i get another one? hopefully as cheap as possible?

-just feel the Love-

Someone said something. They laughed, thinking that the two mentioned are so completely different from each other, how could he have mixed them up?? But they don't know the truth of why it popped out. I do. Thanks (:
Maybe to you, it was just a small gesture, worth nothing much. But to me, it really matter that you bother to even remember such a small thing, taken note of it and tried handling it for me. That's really sweet.

-touched-

kiddie reflections

actually this is meant to be a reflection done long long time ago. But i didnt have time then (not exactly that i have the time now. But really damn stressed up so feel like doing something else to let me forget about all the other idiotic stuff). I had saved it as draft the other time, so i shall now try to recall how-ever-much i can...

Start with a "funny" one 1st.
I was going home from orchard the other time, taking the MRT. Then at city hall i gotta change train mah. That day was around 6++ i think. So lots people going home. The train was damn crowded. Then the doors were finally closing. But i think cos children are too small to be sensored, the door actually CLOSE while the kid WAS STILL WALKING INTO THE TRAIN. The mommy and her sister were already inside the train, so die-die the kid gotta get in rite? But luckily the sides of the train doors have those kinda rubbery cover by the edges, so i think at least the physical pain was slightly reduced. Even most FORTUNATE is that the little gal's mommy & her mommy's friend (or was it some helpful stranger?) managed to pull her off against the resistive forces of the closing doors and got her onto the train. SO SCARY to see such a thing happened right IN FRONT OF MY EYES!!! =s im quite scared myself actually. cant imagine how traumatised the girl must have felt. Okie, maybe this isnt exactly a "funny" thing (as i have said right from the start) the funny thing is that the girl and her sister were crying and crying all the way from city hall to paya lebar (where i dropped). maybe even further down the line but i couldnt see liao.. hAhAz. okie, i shall not be so mean to elaborate how hilarious i find this. But i feel quite touched that her sister actually also feel for her and was so scared that she was crying with her!! So you can imagine how hilarious it looked! erm, but i shall not be so mean. I mean, on one hand, im quite amused by the scene; on the other hand, im really shocked at what i saw [how the doors closed, trapping that poor girl]; on the third hand [yes, im 'san zhi shuo'. hAhAz], im touched by the sister love. maybe the sister cried because she had thought she was going to lose her sister when she saw her being trapped. They must have been close sisters...

Another encounter with kids...
Went to dental on the forth day of orientation (if i didnt remember wrongly). then hafta go back school mah (went in the morn. then when i went back, the uncle said to me "Late arh?" haha. so funny) anyway, dont off-topic. Took 174 from dental back to school. Was really touched by what i saw. When i went up, there was already a young boy with his mom. They don't look ang moh, but their english was accented. Anyway, just a few stops after i got up, another kid came up with his dad. At first, i had the same thought as the young boy, thinking that that is a girl cos of 'her' looks. So, the young boy was already sitting at the front seat of the top of the double-decker, with his mom sitting a seat behind. And i think the other front seat beside it was occupied. So when the 'girl' wanted to sit, but couldnt find an empty seat, the young boy actually offered that kid the other half of the seat! (Even though he [the young boy] called him [the other kid] "hey girl" hAhA) That young boy was like, so outgoing, so friendly, approaching the kid as if he'd known him for ages. Then suddenly, it struck me that kids can make friends so easily. In their world, everything is still pure & innocent. Everything is so simple. They either share or be selfish. So unlike grown-ups, who often hide their true colours. I suddenly realised i was envious of a kid's life.

Too bad i've gotten out of it already. If given a choice, would you rather stay there or move on?? despite envious of them, i'm actually at a loss to make a decision. what about you??