thank god. i almost died.

okayyy... Just when i thought my worst days were over, they came back.
Or rather, they wanna make themselves the worst days of my life in 2006.
Basically i spent the year in hospital. :/
came back on 2nd Jan.

Choked on my water on wednesday night. And i started bleeding from the nose and coughing out blood from my mouth. Really scared, i thought it safer to return to sgh. Rushed to A&E as instructed. Waited damn long there. In the end, got re-admitted back to the ward where i got out just 3 days before.

Wednesday Midnight
Despite me complaining about thick phlegm stuck in throat, making breathing & swallowing difficult, the doctor refused to come til two hours later. After a quick check, he left. What made it more annoying was when i requested him to speak in mandrain (for my mom's sake), his reply was "your board says 'english'". WHAT??!!??! The nurse put the language preferred as English without approaching us! OF COS it says english. & when we made the request, he still dare to talk back! @^%$# :/

Thursday
Wee hours
Woke up still vomiting lots phlegm. When I claimed to feel bleeding from the inside of the nose down the throat to the nurse, what came back was a glass of cold syrup drink. Order from the doctor. To stop the bleeding. HE DIDNT EVEN COME TO CHECK! So i drank it & went back to sleep (tired mah)

Morning
The MOST ANNOYING event happened. I awake again, STILL feeling the bleeding inside, with the uncomfortable thick phlegm STILL stuck in my throat. When i heard that a group of doctors were making their round, i got sooo excited and wrote down what i was feeling (the bleeding & phlegm), hoping they would do something about my discomforts.
FAT HOPE.
WHAT they did when they were in front of me, was a Q&A session conducted by a doctor (or is he a professor? Since everyone else was soooOOOoo afraid of him) to the other doctors.
The Qns? Well, it's about me. To a certain extent.
Why did the doctor plan for a Bimaxillary Osteonomy but in the end decided to move only one jaw?
What is the maximum distance to move the upper jaw & Why?

It's like WHAT THE HELL MAN!?!?!! [sorry for vulgarity. I hate it too. So you can guess how irritated i am]
There i was, lying already almost half-dead. There you are, discussing about stuff you could jolly-oh-well say over, say, MSN CHAT?!?!!
damn pissed off!
They didnt even bother to look at me, my situation, what's more to say about my clipboard.
So i decided to grab their attention by wiping my bleeding nose, only to stop by a SENIOR staff nurse, saying "tissue isnt clean."
*MAD MAD MAD*

Afternoon
The WORST thing [part one] happened.
I vomitted blood again.
But this time, it was tonnes of blood.
They just keeping coming back even when i was gargling them out.
FINALLY the doctors got worried & came to look at my situation. They seemed stunned too, based on their not-really-knowing-what-to-do reaction.
FINALLY stuck some packs into my nose (damn painful i tell ya) to stop the bleeding instead of some cold syrup drink.
But the bleeding still didnt stop.
They got SO SCARED that they appointed a nurse just by my side to suck up the remaining phlegm & blood clots that i was vomitting out every now & then. I even got transferred to high-depency (hi-d) room.

Evening
Worst thing [part two] happened.
Vomitting tonnes of blood. Again.
Doctors FINALLY came when the nurses saw that the vomitting seemed to be getting worse.
HAIZ. Are doctors just so hard to come?!
Re-stuck the packs into my nose. OUCH! But at least the pain's worth it. The bleeding stopped. Finally. And i got the medicine for the phlegm. Finally.
My mom was so pissed about the phlegm med that she asked if it was too expensive & the hosp was afraid that we couldnt afford it!

This whole incident has made me starting to lose faith in doctors and in fact, begining to hate them.
So what they have tonnes of knowledge in the medical field but fail to react upon stumbling real-life problems?
So what they are receiving high pay & seem upon as the most prestige occupation but lack the know-how of sociology?
Perhaps the doctors should learn to listen to their patients about real-life situations, instead of just their professors about factual medical information.
Perhaps the doctors should learn to prevent an emergency, instead of knowing one when they see one.

Dr Colin Song, Dr Andrew Fong, Dr KC Poh, Dr Tay - I will rmb you guys. About how you ignored me. Til the very last emergency moment.

cloud ask me to thank god for surviving. What she doesnt know was
I've already thanked every god & goddess for answering my prayers.
Im so grateful to be alive. Never so grateful.